Inspiration

God it feels good to write again. Thanx Kitty. You did this...

So who is Kitty? Well, I'll explain that later. But he knows who he is- one of few men who've really had a dramatic impact on my life. Right Buddha? And of course there was Honey, who gave me the most gorgeous child anyone could ask for; Hunny, who allowed me to open my heart up once more; Baby, who incited a passion I didn't know was there; My Boo, who even though I never see, I will always be able to feel; and Kragen, who was there for me in my darkest hour. (Can you tell I have a thing for nicknames? If I've named you, yes I gave a f#%k.)

You know what inspiration is? It's a freedom, a happiness that's tangible, it's a lifestyle. My inspiration comes from understanding me, finding myself again and finally learning to be at peace with myself. So I write to look back and understand all these things that I think and feel. Who am I? I'm Just Me.

Someday someone will read this. Maybe many will. Someday my daughter will. Bug, this is for you. You are my heart, my soul, and everything that I have done right. You will know everything about me- the good times, the bad times, and of course, the ugly times. Some of these you may want to scroll past, but then again, you'll be old enough to read it. I love you Bug.... Forever.